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[freshprints]

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KYOKO KIRIGIRI ✦ DANGAN RONPA
RESIDENCE ✦ Residency
GEMBOND ✦ Amethyst

"You've got that wrong. This number, that is."

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[freshprints]

[...Hm. Deflecting didn't work. He didn't change the topic or let her manipulate him into getting offended and flipping the line of conversation that way.

Hmmm.]

Normal is a subjective concept.

I suppose those sorts of activities would be normal for some people, but...

[teaserving]

but not you
which is fine but i figured it's also nice to try what most people normally do

[freshprints]

It's just strange for me. I've never been encouraged to be...like everyone else.

Not that I can remember, at least. Maybe someone did, once. But if so, I don't recall it.

[teaserving]

let me put it this way
i encourage you to do whatever the hell seems fun to you
whether it's normal or not.

didnt get much encouragement from your folks i take it

1/2

[freshprints]

[HA HA. HA. HA. ...HA...HA...]

[freshprints]

I did, but not in the direction of "normalcy".

Rather, you could say that my encouragement was..."to achieve", in a very particular way.

[teaserving]

so you had some controlling parents

look you dont have to talk about it if it's a sensitive subject
family always is

[freshprints]

...

Did we ever decide who won our contest, from the crater?

[teaserving]

i dont think we did

[freshprints]

I'm fine with awarding it to you. You delivered on your half of the bargain, regardless.

...

"A happy memory of mine". Isn't that what you wanted?

[teaserving]

yeah.

you want to do this in person or like this?

[freshprints]

I would prefer the distance that text facilitates, for this.

But I can let myself in to your house in a little while, after. I'll bring coffee.

[teaserving]

i get it. im fine with that.

sure. i'll be awake this time.

[freshprints]

I had a friend once — I don't remember her name, but she was three years older than me. She invited me to the rooftop of our school on Christmas Eve and gave me a rose preserved under glass. I think she thought I reminded her of someone.

I can't elaborate on that memory because I don't remember any more of it. So when I said that offering you a "happy memory" of mine would be a cheap prize, that's what I meant.

[teaserving]

you really dont have any other happy memories?

[freshprints]

I don't remember.

I'm sure I must have been happy. It only stands to reason.

[teaserving]

you did mention your memories were messed with. that makes sense.

well
i know this is a weird situation
but
make some new ones kirigiri
im too familiar with just remembering the worst i've lived
and i regret not valuing the things i cared about more

[freshprints]

That's right. My memories were considered "dangerous", so they were removed. Some of them have come back by now, but...that's not something I'm interested in advertising, generally.

I don't want your pity. So if you feel that, please do me the courtesy of keeping it suppressed around me, if you can't rid yourself of it altogether.

[teaserving]

it's called empathy but if that makes you uncomfortable then i'll keep it to myself

[freshprints]

It wasn't an accusation. Or a response to something you did.

I'm trying to explain why I didn't want to do this in person. I don't want you to look at me like that.

[teaserving]

whatever makes you feel better

[freshprints]

It will.

[IT WON'T.]

What did you lose? That you cared about.

[teaserving]

that's a long fucking list
want me to pick one?

[freshprints]

I'll trade you, one for one.

[teaserving]

the first person i really loved
he died because of me.