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KYOKO KIRIGIRI ✦ DANGAN RONPA
RESIDENCE ✦ Residency
GEMBOND ✦ Amethyst

"You've got that wrong. This number, that is."

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[freshprints]

I did, but not in the direction of "normalcy".

Rather, you could say that my encouragement was..."to achieve", in a very particular way.

[teaserving]

so you had some controlling parents

look you dont have to talk about it if it's a sensitive subject
family always is

[freshprints]

...

Did we ever decide who won our contest, from the crater?

[teaserving]

i dont think we did

[freshprints]

I'm fine with awarding it to you. You delivered on your half of the bargain, regardless.

...

"A happy memory of mine". Isn't that what you wanted?

[teaserving]

yeah.

you want to do this in person or like this?

[freshprints]

I would prefer the distance that text facilitates, for this.

But I can let myself in to your house in a little while, after. I'll bring coffee.

[teaserving]

i get it. im fine with that.

sure. i'll be awake this time.

[freshprints]

I had a friend once — I don't remember her name, but she was three years older than me. She invited me to the rooftop of our school on Christmas Eve and gave me a rose preserved under glass. I think she thought I reminded her of someone.

I can't elaborate on that memory because I don't remember any more of it. So when I said that offering you a "happy memory" of mine would be a cheap prize, that's what I meant.

[teaserving]

you really dont have any other happy memories?

[freshprints]

I don't remember.

I'm sure I must have been happy. It only stands to reason.

[teaserving]

you did mention your memories were messed with. that makes sense.

well
i know this is a weird situation
but
make some new ones kirigiri
im too familiar with just remembering the worst i've lived
and i regret not valuing the things i cared about more

[freshprints]

That's right. My memories were considered "dangerous", so they were removed. Some of them have come back by now, but...that's not something I'm interested in advertising, generally.

I don't want your pity. So if you feel that, please do me the courtesy of keeping it suppressed around me, if you can't rid yourself of it altogether.

[teaserving]

it's called empathy but if that makes you uncomfortable then i'll keep it to myself

[freshprints]

It wasn't an accusation. Or a response to something you did.

I'm trying to explain why I didn't want to do this in person. I don't want you to look at me like that.

[teaserving]

whatever makes you feel better

[freshprints]

It will.

[IT WON'T.]

What did you lose? That you cared about.

[teaserving]

that's a long fucking list
want me to pick one?

[freshprints]

I'll trade you, one for one.

[teaserving]

the first person i really loved
he died because of me.

[freshprints]

[...Ah. That's. ...Uncomfortably familiar, isn't it.]

Was it an accident?

[teaserving]

yes and no.

i was a dirty cop
i started taking bribes from some people when i was supposed to arrest them
the last guy i took money from broke into a convenience store and killed the owner to take the money
i was supposed to arrest him with my partner. the guy i loved.
but the perp said he'd out me so i hesitated
before he could shoot me, my partner took the bullet on purpose.

[freshprints]

I understand. You didn't pull the trigger, but your actions manufactured the situation.

Were you afraid? When he threatened to expose you. The emotion you felt...was it fear?

[teaserving]

yeah.
i didnt care if anyone else found out
but if my partner did
that's what i was thinking about
my dream was already broken beyond disrepair but he was the only thing i had left at the time

[freshprints]

Was the criminal in the Italian mafia? Is that why you started investigating their boss?